My day was off to a bumpy start this morning when I was awakened by somebody demanding I get up "Right now"...why is it that this always happens RIGHT before my alarm is set to go off!!?  (This is one of those things I would refer to as a "hiccup" in my day)  Well, needless to say I was not amused...and for me, stuff like that kinda sets the pace for the rest of my day...I like to get up on my own, and not be woke up by people demanding things from me...I have told them this SOOOOOO MANY TIMES, but for some reason it just doesn't seem to register.  Either that, or they just don't care.  I felt like a slave (not family) and completely at their disposal to do/treat me the way they saw fit.  Poor me....let the pity party begin....

  But anyways, I got up, and started getting things done and minding my own business....because if I didn't mind my own business, things would have been said that I would now regret and my day would be worse off 

than it already was at the time...(actually it was the "Silent Treatment"...i'd show them just how badly they wronged me...such a plight I had and it was ALL their fault....POOR ME)   I basically just needed time to cool off and the people I was upset with couldn't have left at a better time...so to make a long story short I did my cooling off and got quite a bit accomplished while doing so....btw, if you can't figure it out yet, today has been a Linkin Park day for me (mostly), it's what I'd been blasting throughout my "Cool-off Session"  LOL...

I'm feeling a little better now, but also feel kinda worse for complaining (Imagine that, feeling bad for standing up for myself...well I COULD have went about it in a completely different way, but I was still half asleep at that moment so everything was still jaded)  I feel so selfish and mean sometimes, and I don't like to be nor feel that way. After all, it's NOT all about ME  (okay well maybe it's just a LITTLE about me lol but not nearly to the degree I was taking it to).  I DO love my family, and I know the reason we butt heads is because we love each other enough to care...If we didn't care, there'd be no reason to argue.  They just needed my help, and instead of feeling honored to be asked to help I complained and trudged through it with a dreadful heart.  They're not always guna be around for me to enjoy doing things for them and with them, I need to enjoy them while I still have them.  I feel like such a heel, or should I say DUMBASS...maybe I'm just a spoiled brat.  Regardless, I'm sorry for my complainin', whinin', and moanin..

Enjoy your family and loved ones, people, they're the only ones we got, like it or not.  They're not always guna be around...and one day they'll be gone and it'll be too late.  I'm thankful for each and every one of you too, I consider my friends to be family, especially my closest friends.  Thanks for putting up with me and my moods, and for being there for me when I'm in the middle of one of my moods and need you...or need to be set straight, even tho I may not like what I hear (Usually that's what I need to hear the most!!), I thank and LOVE YOU ALL!!  (HUGS)  XOXOXOX  \m/

P.S. I've found that life is too short to hold onto anger, JUST LET IT GO!!!  Making amends is
best (at least from what I've learned thru experience), and you'll feel so much happier for doing it...Forgiving and/or asking forgiveness is hard, but necessary to be healthy: emotionally, mentally, physically and spiritually (Yes, I said Spiritually...it's not the same thing as "religion", so don't think I'm getting all religious on you, I'M NOT!! lol)  But I need forgiveness (giving and receiving) to be happy and healthy...Tis' the season for clearing the air!!!

HAVE A WONDERFUL & MERRY

CHRISTMAS, AND A ROCKIN', POSITIVE,

PRODUCTIVE & HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!  :)